May you always shine

Hey little sunshine,

Even before the new year began, you were already anticipating 2013 as you’ll be graduating to N2 class. While you were looking forward being a big girl, a part of me ached, wishing that I had spent more time with you instead of sending you to full day childcare. But I am thankful that you’ve taken well to the teachers and friends and enjoy going to school. It’s perfectly understandable when there are days when you wished you don’t have to go to school because I wished I could spend more time at home with you too.

You may be too young to understand about new year resolutions but I made one, maybe a couple for you anyway. One was to be a good girl and listen to Daddy and Mummy. We also tried to get you to sleep in your room on your own. The first night ended in tears. I still remembered how worried you looked when I told you there is no more scratching or hugging mummy to sleep. You simple stared into space as if processing the consequences of your promise made earlier and tears started to roll down your cheeks. All it took was a, “Why darling?” and the floodgates opened. You gave me the tightest hug around my arm and insisted you were not ready yet… Secretly I wasn’t too and wiped your tears away while whispering to you, “It’s ok, tomorrow, tomorrow…”

Looking at that adorable face of yours, it’s hard to imagine that you can be quite a dynamite. Your fight to independence continues as you try to do things on your own, and demanding that things have to be done your way. Whoever thought that the terrible behavior stops at two was so wrong. I probably contributed to that with my impatience with you. So I promise to watch my temper and be more patient with you so I’ll try to always be a good role model for you to look up to.

Whatever the new year brings for us, I hope that you’ll always remain your cheerful and bubbly self. One who brings joy with your infectious laughter. And remember may you always shine and be that beam of sunshine in my life.